week 4 ends!

Week 4 is over.

Yesterday, I got home and felt exhausted. I did not let this get me out of a workout, however. I got all dressed up to run outside---for the first time in a month! Oy. It has been too cold and depressing to get myself outside on the lakefront path, but yesterday as the snow thawed a bit and the sun was just about to go down, I braved it. I ran 4 miles and stopped to do some push-ups 2 times along the way. (also, to blow my nose) It felt really good to run outside and probably was a good choice for yesterday-I feel like an exercise video or the gym would have been too much. Running outside is exhilarating and instantly got my blood going. It takes longer to get the blood going at home or on a machine.

Anyway, today is day of rest and the SUPER BOWL! I don't really care about the teams---but I am cheering for the Steelers.
As my husband and his friends make this ridiculous bacon roll---bacon, cheese, BBQ sauce, italian sausage, rolled up and smoked all day...., I will prepare a healthy version of 7 layer dip. I'm using vegetarian refried beans, homemade salsa, homemade guacamole, plain yogurt (instead of sour cream), cheese, olives, and....hmmmm I'm struggling for the 7th layer. Oops. Ok, mine might be 6....

Today is also supposed to be my "cheat" day. I want to let myself cheat, however, I have sort of been cheating all week. Not as much sugar as most weeks, but I've snuck in some chocolate covered raisins, dark chocolate hershey kisses, and sweetened dried fruit--especially last night as I enjoyed 2 glasses of red wine. (!!) Oh, was it 2 1/2? I can't remember. (it was a trying week!)

SO. dilemma. What to do. While I think cutting back on sugar is a great idea, I found myself going crazy thinking about chocolate--thus, why I allowed myself to have some here and there. I know, I know--it's not like I was gorging myself on cookies, or pure sugar candies. On the other hand, I'm trying to really change my body and get stronger. To do so, I need to really focus on "clean eating" Sunday dilemma: Do I get my sugar and white flour baked treat for breakfast this am before church? More importantly, do I let myself have a Sunday "cheat" day as originally planned???

I guess we'll have to wait and find out....