oh joys!

It's working, it's working!

Ha. Ok, so today is what I'd call a good day for me--fitness wise. Sadly, I really mean in terms that I looked in the mirror today and felt like my new training program may be paying off.

I took a quiz the other day from one of my fave blogs to follow, The Great Fitness Experiment. Lovely Charlotte asked us to tell whether we work out for vanity, for peak physical fitness, or a combo (she had several options, but that's the jist). I had a hard time choosing. I clearly enjoy all physical activities. I know I would do them even if I was told that I will look the same forever no matter what. However, I also workout because I AM seeking peak physical form as well. Ok, my personal idea of peak form. So, it was nice to finally look in the mirror today and feel like all the hours I've put in are paying off. My entire body just looked a little stronger today. I'm sure if I asked my husband or a friend, they'd have no idea, but I thought it and it's worth writing about. I want to remember these moments.

I don't know if this is just a female thing or just has to do with lower self-esteem moments, but I wouldn't be surprised at all if I woke up tomorrow and thought differently. It's funny how that happens. I'd say I'm a very well-adjusted person. (You'd hope so considering I'm a counselor) But seriously, I'm pretty positive, yet realistic. Sometimes my realism can come off sounding negative to some people but I don't like sugar coating---especially to myself. When it comes to my body, however, I recognize that while most days I think I'm honest, things do also change with my mood. If I'm in a bad mood, I know pretty much everything I look at is going to seem bad. That is, at least when I'm in a real downswing. SO. Today I wanted to put it out there that I feel really GOOD about the effort I'm putting in to this program and the care I'm taking to eat in a way that's healthy and right for my lifestyle.

The best moment of the day: I was sitting in my supervisor's office for clinical supervision and I thought, "I feel great right now. I have so much energy, I feel focused, and my body feels strong! I'm sitting up straight and I'm being pro-active in getting the things that normally stress me out done. I wonder if I'll start feeling like this most of the time!" It was strange, really. I just felt so good. Not that I don't normally feel pretty good, but I just felt so strong--like I could do my job really well in that moment because I have been so mindful lately of what we counselors call "self-care". (ok, I realize anyone can use that term, but it takes on a special meaning with trauma workers)

Lastly--my workout today was Cardio Express cd. I couldn't get myself to run the treadmill....yet. So, I did the 55 min. tae bo thing. It was great! More tomorrow on stats from Wednesday and for Friday.